How can it be??

That this week this little guy will turn 3?? He has been growing and changing so much lately, the biggest accomplishment? He is now officially potty trained! YAY!! He is such a stubborn boy, rough and tough, all boy. I think that is why God made him so dang cute because he is the most exhausting child I have ever had!! But with that curly hair and those blue eyes he is hard to stay mad at long.

Balancing Act

Motherhood is a balancing act, no doubt about it and lately I feel like I have failed more times than I have succeeded. I feel like all day I am running around like a chicken with my head cut off trying to accomplish the many goals I have set for myself that day and at the end of the day only half are done, I am spent, physically and emotionally and sometimes to tell you the truth I am wishing I could catch a train to anywhere but here. I want so badly to enjoy this time, when my kids are small and I do usually but man sometimes I just break down in tears wondering how I'll make it through the next hour. And it's not just the kids but the laundry, the Dr.'s appointments, the dog, the financial struggles, depression, marriage struggles, grocery shopping and total utter lack of me time. There is always a power struggle going on in my brain about how much time to devote to what and i feel like I am always messing it up. I want to be outside playing with my kids but instead i'm inside doing dishes, or I want to clean the floors but I am clipping coupons. So how do you find a balance?? How do you maintain a house yet not miss out on fun time with your kids?? I know there is an answer but it escapes me......

The Chosen one

When I was thinking of a blog name for our newest addition I decided on the Chosen one, because, well he was the child we got to choose! I can't really get into much detail about how he is part of our family, partially because it's complicated and partially because it's not my story to tell. But for all important purposes, he is our "son" and we love him to pieces. I truly believe God puts people in each others lives at just the right time and that is so true in this case. God really did a great thing by putting "M" in our lives and I think he feels the same way too. I may not have given birth to him, but in my heart he is my child. Maybe someday he will do a guest post and share his story. Just know from now on he will be included in many of my posts. And please pray for him as he is going through some difficult times and could use some prayer. Thank you.

Getting to Know you is back!!

Haven't played along in a while but I am back this week, playing along with MANNLAND5

The questions this week are:

1. what's something you've eaten and liked, but didn't think you would?
Carrot cake!

2. plastic surgery..yay or nay?
NAY- I have had enough surgeries without a cosmetic one,

3. 2 things you love about spring are.....?
The flowers and the fresh air smell

4. when's the last time you went on a picnic?
Three weeks ago on one of my kid's field trip

5. what's your favorite app?
Twitter

6. who does the grocery shopping in your house?
Mostly me but sometimes my husband and I both.

7. would you rather take a spin class or zumba?
zumba

8. how often do you go out to dinner?
NOT ENOUGH, maybe once a month.

It's been a while

Since I have blogged, mostly because i have been bogged down in a sea of depression and all OI could handle was the piles of laundry in front of me and dirty diapers. It has really been a struggle. On top of that my father was diagnosed with a serious illness. Mental illness of any kind is so hard because it's not like an infection that is a one pill cure all, it is such a guessing game as to what medication will help what person and I am still on the journey to find just the right combination of things. It really feels lie being in the middle of a storm at sea with no life vest.

I have also been taking lots of pictures lately. And working on potty training Bulldog, who is almost 3 and still mostly refusing to use the potty!! Krews is walking everywhere and we are about to celebrate Sunshines big 7th bday!!

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Moments like this

I feel like somedays all I say is "No" to Knox, "No, get off your brother, don't push him down, don't ride him, don't take his paci!! But then sweet moments like this happen and take my breath away. Krews snuggled up to his brother and Knox patted his back until he fell asleep!! Makes my heart melt!!


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